Boo Making Decisions...

So, have a decision to make, which I hate making. Hmmm...do I go back to school in January to finish my degree or do I go to Australia and help out with the Soccer DTS. My normal natured self would lean towards going to Australia because it seems like I go against the expected usually and I would love the chance that I would be given there. But, there is practicality to consider and I have been waiting over a year to try and get in. So I am going to be praying and seeking God's will for my life. I would love your prayers too.

No Matter What

So, just to let you know that Jeremy Camp has amazing lyrics. Here is one song from his new album "Beyond Measure."

I know that everytime I find the one thing that holds me back inside
I want to tear apart and bring my selfish pleasures at your feet.
Every part of me is an offering,
I will set forth and lay it down at Your throne.
Because I live for You alone.

No matter what it takes I will offer.
Everything I am I give to you.
Even unto death I will follow,
No matter what the price I will give to you now.

I won't throw this time I have aside,
You're the very prize I have in sight.
You've placed this purpose down in me,
And it burns so deep.
Let this life I lead bring You all the glory,
I'm intrusted with a gift that I can't hide.
Revive my heart, revive my mind.
To live is to really die.
I will keep this steady pace until the final day.

So, it is my prayer that my life would be an offering to my loving Saviour. As I seek God's will for my life, I know that He has placed the passions within my heart for a purpose that will continually be fulfilled through the pathway of my life, wherever it leads.

Brightly coloured sunsets and starry heavens, majestic mountains and shining seas, and fragrant fields and fresh-cut flowers are not even half as beautiful as a soul who is serving Jesus out of love, through the wear and tear of an ordinary, unpoetic life.

-Frederick William Faber-

The Life of Suzanne Jarvie...

So, for some reason, I feel like I am not supposed to have a "normal" life per say - you know a job, my own place, etc, etc. Well, why do you ask. I definitly get bored after a while with the mundane routines. I thrive for change. For example, I could be working full-time right now, but I have chosen not to, and go to school part-time instead, just cause. I don't know how many people would do that. Who, knows, maybe I am not so different. But I love my classes and have been learning a lot and growing through it. I am ready for the next adventure in life.

The latest lesson in life...
Well, my life has been filled with frustration related to playing soccer lately. I will not bore you with the details, especially for those who do not play soccer. However, in the last month I have made a more conscious effort to pray and ask God to help me represent him on the field and that the reason I would be playing would be for him. Since then, I feel like I have been frustrated like never before. The point is, while some of my frustration was legitimate, it got to the point of interferring with my life, mostly after the game. There was a battle going on in my mind. At first I didn't realize that it was Satan trying to mess with my mind, but alas, the truth prevailed. I realized my focus had changed a bit and I was focusing on the negative. So, even if I feel like my team is spiraling from first into the bottom of the league, I know that perseverence is good for the body. A good lesson learned I suppose. Now we'll see how it all goes next Sunday when I play.

Next...Australia?
Well, next up in line is Australia. Well, what do I mean by that. Well, got a crazy email from a friend that used to be on my soccer team. She is over in Australia helping out with a DTS (Discipleship Training School with YWAM for those of you that do not know). She is going to be starting a Soccer DTS next fallish and has asked me to help her out and be a leader for it. Soooooooo crazy. Wow, it fills me with excitement and joy at the prospect because that is something that I would love to do and going to Australia would not be hard. But anyway, I am prayfully considering this as a real option in my life. There are many implications of this and many fears that I have associtated with this. So, only God knows what his will for my life is. It is an exciting journey that is for sure. Anything is possible.

January...
I hope to go back and finish my final practicum so I finish my Bachelors of Science degree. I have been trying to get in for quite awhile now, so I am eagerly hoping that all will work out. If not, I am going to try and transfer my credits to another school, which is a big hassle. However, I know that everything will work out, in his time and place. It is the patience part that is hard sometimes.

So yah, that is what is up in my life in a snidbit the last couple of days. Enjoy!